Hi, my name is Steph. I usually keep to myself to avoid judgement or conflict but I'm hoping someone can help me make sense of two dreams I had.. the first I was awake though in another state of consciousness if that makes sense...the second I was asleep, completely out of it after not sleeping 5 nights in a row. 2 years ago I reached the point where everything was too much to handle. I was in an abusive relationship, fighting with family constantly and leaving uni due to an inability to study... One night I remember sitting on the couch watching a movie with my family..I jumped up off the couch though it felt like I was still sitting down, I wandered over to the kitchen and looked up. I could see what was left of a house after a fire...there were still bits of ash and rubble falling around me...the roof was completely gone...this part is tricky to explain...I could see three entities ascending upwards towards a light..they were not in physical form but I knew it was my mother, father and brother...I watched them leave... I remember the words "So that is what happened here" enter my mind... I went to bed and woke up the next morning and collapsed in the kitchen I was hospitalised for over a month and told the hallucination was psychosis ..... Even though I didnt deny it I felt like there was more to it.. The second experience occurred while I was staying at a house with many random people coming and going. I had been awake for 5 nights and passed out on the couch in the living room..from previous experience..when I fall asleep after that long I'm usually out cold for nearly 24 hours. In my dream, everything was pitch black...then i could vividly see a man reaching over to touch me.. I then jolted or had a convulsion/seizure and shot upright and opened my eyes while already shouting 'get the f**k away from me' there was enough light from my phone screen to see one of the men who was also staying at the house, he was in shock with his arm still reaching towards me. He left the room. He then told me he was attempting to cover me with a blanket because I seemed cold...there was no blanket. I told a couple of friends who have said 'its just the psychotic features of your illness' or 'thats sleep paralysis' which I've learnt could not have been at all... can anybody shed some light on what is happening because my dreams are becoming more vivid...though it feels more like I'm watching footage from the news...seeing such bad things occur.....I rarely sleep at all now.